![]() I used to be very good at acting and even found myself the subject of my State's front page of the newspaper. I wanted to do something that I loved that I had not done in a long time and decided to audition for a play. When a recent return of cancer took over my life, again, I meditated upon what I could do to fill my soul just in case this was my last chance. As you said, there is clearly a karmic issue here, and I will of course have to deal with that as it comes up, but again it doesn’t have to interfere with me doing my job, unless there is a deeper reason for it.Īll of your postings have provided me with a deeply mind blowing epiphany regarding one of my life experiences that has had me baffled for some time now. So, I rest assured there is no conflict between my soul’s emergence and me doing my job. ![]() It also dawned on me, that if the ‘Observer’ doesn’t care at all about the outcome of the performance, then the Observer also has absolutely no interest in ‘ruining’ the show or causing any other kind of ‘trouble’, for me or anybody else involved. If the ‘Me’ we talked about is not really me, but just a shadow identity, I have no problems releasing it and settling into my new experience of ‘observing’ consciousness. In fact, I feel excited at the opportunity of a deeper exploration. As I go into performance tomorrow, I feel quite confident everything will be just fine. Open, thank you for helping me understand what’s happening. I will use my tools and remember how to fly. Paul, thanks for sharing your synchronicities and making me laugh.Īphroheidi, thank you for sharing your story and especially your writing. It just can’t go ‘wrong’ when so many synchronicities like this happen, and when there is so much benevolence finding multiple ways to push its way through to us. I feel so much support from you, I’m really softening inside. All those energy therapies are also not helping. People are sitting to scavenge money off your problems. When I go to someone for any kind of help, be it spiritual, astrological, psychic etc, they rip me off. Like everybody is doing me favors but I'm not able to return them. Whenever someone offers help I feel so indebted to them. Don't know why they chose our file to ignore. We have applied for immigrating to another country but we've been waiting for 8 months now without any news. My husband also lost his job because of the drama my parents did. I learned other therapies in order to earn a living but even then nothing is working out. I have struggled so much but got zero response so I stopped doing it. I am a post graduate dentist and a highly talented person still cannot land a job. They moulded me according to them now I cannot even function in the society. I feel so bad about it because I always thought about them my whole life and now I got nothing in return. I got married against their wishes (husband is not rich)and they broke all ties to me. My friends didn't know I'm rich until I told them. They are rich but even then I used to wear old clothes and spend minimum. I always felt like my parents are doing a big favor to me by taking care of me and I have to pay it all back. I have been feeling like a guest in my house since my childhood. I mean they were spending their days in 45° hot weather without a cooler or an AC. They're so well off still they cannot spend a penny on something that is useful. I do feel like I have a poverty consciousness but it is much better than what my parents have. ![]() I'm new to this forum, trying to find answers to my completely halted life. I would also advise reading through some of the articles here on the website on general spirituality. The next one would be the Breakthrough Breathing meditation which can be downloaded for a small charge. The Ascension meditation would be a good start, again which you can listen to for free. I would then advise taking up some of the breathing meditations we practice here. I would suggest watching our 5GATEWAYS documentary which you can watch here for free. To find the core of you that is interconnected with source. In this approach, the essential thing is to get to know yourself beyond these external factors. Hence the Universe is reflecting sense of lack (and possibly worthlessness) due to the shadow ego. It would seem there's a fair personal investment in your identity and sense of worth based on the responses of others or connections to others, or else how the extrernal shapes and moves - an investment and identification with that. There's quite a pattern that leaps out from what you're sharing.
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